Did i waste my love ?

Its hard for me to let him go. Because to be honest through all the boyfriend that i have. He was the one i really love. The one that i dream to have a family with. The one i gave my whole heart to.

But i have to let him go no matter how hard. Because his point of leaving me is to study hard persue his career. He is currently living in a hard life. I cannot be selfish and just think of myself :) he said if we continue our relationship it wouldn't work out because he won't have time for me, to make me happy and to study.

With my heart that is not with me and with him .. Im letting him go. But now i think to myself, he said he doesnt have time for me right ? Because he's so busy. How come he can have fun with his friends when im all sad at home trying to kill myself ? I thought he had no time for all that.

How come he have time tweeting .. Thinking other girl is cute when he said he still love me. I know i have no right to be jealous about other girl with him because he's not mine anymore. But i just feel really sad he's doing this to me. The one who i thought would be my husband.

Im not blaming her or spamming him. Its all my fault. He was there for me throught everything. But i never thank him. I just complain , braging , crying and blaming him. All i see this is a lesson from Allah. If he's the one for me Allah will show us the way. If not, i will always praying for more strength.

I will always pray for his success, happines with his family. Amin

Please don't forget #FLS

Did you forget ? That i was even alive
Did you forget ? Everything we ever had
Did you forget ? Did you forget ? About me ?

Did you regret ? Ever standing by my side
Did you forget ? What we were feeling inside ?
Now I'm left...to forget...About us

But somewhere we went wrong
We were once so strong :'(
Our love is like a song
You can't forget it...

So now i guess this is where we have to stand
Did you regret ? Ever holding my hand ?
Never again :'( Please don't forget

We had it all,
We were just about to fall, even more inlove than we did before :'(
I won't forget... I won't forget... About us :'(

My boyfriend died 3 years ago

My boyfriend died 3 years ago. The car he was in got hit by a bus. I was waiting for him to reply my chat. Turns out he was dead. It is really sad. To think that he's not gonna be there for me anymore , i can't hug him anymore just kills me everyday.

Some people said that i should move on because he's not gonna come back. But i can't. Its not easy to move on. Im here in my bed missing him talking to me on the phone everyday and night. Its all gone now. Though i hate the fact i can only "talk to him in the phone" but that's the only way we can talk to each other. We only see each other once every 2 weeks or once a month..,

Now those once in 2 weeks n once a months gonna be forever. Hopefully i'll see him at the end of the world. No matter who i'll get marry to i will always remember him.

I love u so much.   Thank you for the love u had given me .

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Debokkk ida dah nantok ahhh , btw ida dah sampai rumahhhh :D ida dah makan ubat siap siap dah bok *main kening* good girl tk ? Hahah ye la ida makan ubat senang sikit nak tidur :( kalau tak asyik fikir kan faiq je :( asyik meleleh je air mate :'( bokk ~ tolong bisik kan faiq ida syg faiq n goodnite. Cakap ngan die take care tau. And i love him :( nitee debokkk

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Debokkk :( lamenye mama ni nak balikk ~ ida nantukkkk ~ debok debok tengok ni *tunjuk siku*lukaaa gatalll ~ bok garu kan ?

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Debokk ~ ida mengantukkk ah *baring atas riba u* tunggu ustz ni tak habis habis lagi ceramah u ~ sayang kejut kan ida eh ? Can or not ? *tunjuk gigi* yeayyy sayanggg debok :* and one more thing bgtau tau faiq ida rindu die :') i hope he's happy

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Debokkkk !!! Ida tengah tengok iraaa suap numa watermelon ;) haha main makan aeroplane ngan watermelonn :D cute gile ! Bile ira nak suap i kan die marah hahaha jealous :) ya allah u nak anak macammm dieee :) tau tau :) i love u :) *gomoiii*