Why do i still feel the pain..

Its been months already... But i still feel sad. I still shed a tears every single night thinking of faiq. I tried everything every second to get him off my mind. But i can't. Is it because i love him too much. I kept telling myself to move on ida. There's no reason for me to say and wait for miracle for him to love you back. After what i've done to faiq.

My mom kept telling me if i pray something good to happen to him. I will be happier. Always pray for the best of him. And i did. Never missed his name even once in my prayers. But why mama.. Why am i still having this feeling. 

Im sorry faiq. I pray for you each day. For you to find someone that can light up your days. Someone that can cook for you. Someone that can make u feel happy when u're all tired coming back from work or a bad day. Someone that can actually be next to you when u needed her.. Not just through phone... Someone that can carve that cute smile of ur's forever.

I pray for u to find someone that can do things to make u the happiest men alive the things i never get to do.....Aminn

IloveuFLS.

Debokkkk i found a cat at home !

Debok debok tadi kan ida tgh lepak rmh mak ngah tau lepas seminar bile ida bukak pintu tibe tibe ade kucing kat dlm rmh wearing a collar. Ida ingatkan kucing mak ngah sebab en syg die duduk diam atas kerusi mcm rmh die hahaha cute gile. I buat donno je la ~ tibe tibe mak ngah jerit hahahha die takut kucing lupenye bukan kucing die sayangg ~ hahha tapi die comeeelll sngt ~ die nak manja kesian die mesti sesat tu. 

Will you ?

A hundred and five is the number that comes to my head,When I think of all the years I wanna be with you.

Wake up every morning with you in my bed.That's precisely what I plan to do

And you know one of these days when I get my money right

Buy you everything and show you all the finer things in life

We'll forever be in love, so there ain't no need to rush

But one day I won't be able to ask you loud enough 

I'll say, "Will you marry me?"

I swear that I will mean it

I'll say, "Will you marry me?" 

I miss you debok. I've been trying to get hold on to you. But it looks like u're busy working on your future. 

Everynight i will listening to this song hoping one day you'll ask me those 4 words. "Will you marry me?" Hahaha berangan je ida ni 😊