Why do i still feel the pain..

Its been months already... But i still feel sad. I still shed a tears every single night thinking of faiq. I tried everything every second to get him off my mind. But i can't. Is it because i love him too much. I kept telling myself to move on ida. There's no reason for me to say and wait for miracle for him to love you back. After what i've done to faiq.

My mom kept telling me if i pray something good to happen to him. I will be happier. Always pray for the best of him. And i did. Never missed his name even once in my prayers. But why mama.. Why am i still having this feeling. 

Im sorry faiq. I pray for you each day. For you to find someone that can light up your days. Someone that can cook for you. Someone that can make u feel happy when u're all tired coming back from work or a bad day. Someone that can actually be next to you when u needed her.. Not just through phone... Someone that can carve that cute smile of ur's forever.

I pray for u to find someone that can do things to make u the happiest men alive the things i never get to do.....Aminn

IloveuFLS.