Singing alone in bed

When ever im alone i like to sing this song to myself. Especially when im on bed waiting for my eyes to sleep. Some times tears would run down on my face unexpectedly and i smiled. 

You - Jannah Alia 

You were there to light my day,

You were there to guide me through 

From my days down and on

I'll never stop thinking of you

How can i forget all that

When you're the one who make me smile 

You'll always be part of me 

How i wish you were still mine 

Never will forget the day 

How we've met and came this far 

We all know we got this feeling

But somehow it has to end up here

I know it's me who said goodbye 

That's the hardest thing to do

Cause you ment so much to me

And guide the truth from me to you 

For all the things i've done and said

For all the hurt that i've cause you

I hope you'll forgive me debok 

Cause that wasn't what i meant to do.....

To honest i've tried so hard to move on.  

Try to find another guy. But i got played in stead and lied instead. Its like Allah is telling me to stay and keep loving you silently. The silent part hurts me. May Allah give me strength.if he really is for me may Allah show us the path back together. If not may Allah show us our own path away from each other. Im leaving it all to Allah.

And only Allah knows how much i love him no matter where we are or what we are